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On One Decade In

Note: This entry is pretty much one big whine. When you’ve been sick for ten years, you get a coupon in the mail that entitles you to one 1800-word whine. I usually try to be at least somewhat upbeat and hopeful on … Continue reading

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The Lace of Life

I was thinking, while we were in Asheville, about Dresden lace figurines. They’re porcelain figurines decorated with very realistic-looking lace, which is created by dipping cotton lace in porcelain and applying it to the figurine. The cloth burns off in … Continue reading

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Hindsight

Living with a disease of unknown etiology is, let’s say, problematic. The lack of a well-defined cause stymies efforts toward a cure, and opens up a gaping void that gets filled, at best, with wide-ranging science, but more prosaically with … Continue reading

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My Worst Year: Theda and Thomas and Me

Trigger warning for discussion of suicide. This summer, two well-known ME patients, Theda Myint and Thomas Hennessey, took their lives. I didn’t know either of them personally. Theda was well-known through her “Help Theda” facebook page, and was a very … Continue reading

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Gratitude

One of the more difficult things to deal with about being this ill is the feeling of uselessness imposed by my physical limits. Even as long as I’ve been ill, I’ve never quite gotten over the guilt of not being … Continue reading

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Losing My Edge

(Lyrics here.) One day about three years into my illness, when I was still well enough to be working but sick enough to be doing so from home, I met my departing boss – let’s call him Brad – for … Continue reading

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How it Began – Part IV: The Crash and The Aftermath

This is the final entry in my ME/CFS “origin story.” Here are Part I, Part II, and Part III. We arrived back in California on Thursday night. I had already planned to take Friday off to recuperate from the trip. Saturday, May … Continue reading

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